The title, of course, is referring to the essay that Beeks made us write. "Write about someone you know who had something really horrible happen to them, that changed their life and made them miserable. Don't write about anything happy. Make it as personal and as painful to write as you can. Make sure to angst as you write it." 

I made something up.

I finished Portal this weekend, and it has most certainly been added to my Top 3 Games list, which now includes Portal, Phoenix Wright, and Legend of Zelda: TP, in no particular order. But honestly, I love GLaDOS more than I should. "That thing is probably a raw sewage containment unit. So just go ahead and rub your face all over it." Also, I'm going to start saying, "NO WAI." Aaaand... Oh. The Curiosity Cube is my absolute favorite, even more than the turrets. "Who are you? What is that? Ooh, what's in here? Hey, look at that thing! No, the other thing! Ooh, that thing has numbers on it! Hey, you're that lady from the test! HI! Where are you going? Eeew! What's wrong with your legs!? Do you smell something burning?"

And unfortunately, I actually quoted the snarky computer  in reference to my dad, saying, "Helloooooo~? THAT'S YOU. THAT'S HOW DUMB YOU SOUND." Looking back, that was nooooot the smartest thing to do. Then again, he also didn't take it seriously, "so that's funny too."

There are so many things about the latest Dollhouse episode, that I would hardly bother to write them all down here. Simply: Sierra/Victor FTW. November breaks my heart. Sierra's backstory is also really awful, though, and I mean that in the sense that it's well-written, just really, really horrible. Echo/Caroline is awesome, but still not my favorite, even though the scene with Topher was amazing (aslyricalecho so enthusiastically points out.) Paul is sexy but insane. Unless that's just his dreams. THOSE ARE TOTALLY CRACK!DREAMS, HE'S NOT CRAZY. (And [lyrical]Echo, dear, I told you he had a thing for Caroline in particular.) But why don't I like that? It just seems wrong. Lastly, Topher, being afraid of the dark, and I honestly can't help but see him as just "the science guy," like maybe [lyrical]Echo when she grows up to be a supervillain.

Oh, hey, I was English today and I as was dumping my stuff on the back counter, I heard two generally non-dorky girls (though not quite the sporty/jock type) say something along the lines of, "Oh, yeah, I can't believe Angel came back and apologized!" And I figured since there is a guy in my grade named as such, I should ignore it. But then Molly was like, "Oh, man! Buffy was great in that scene!" After which I homed in and was all, "Uh... What are you talking about?" They muttered an ashamed, "Buffy the Vampire Slayer," and I was like, "OMG YOU GUYS 
ARE MY NEW FAVORITE PEOPLE." It was pretty awesome, and since they're only a little ahead of me, we would have fangirled more, but then Beeks came in. Frickety frick on a buscuit. 

Ok, so it turns out Eli!Snape has an art class at the same time, as me, but across the hall. Since my class gets out earlier, and I sometimes poke in to say hi to Ms. Colotti, I ended up seeing him in there. They're doing the horrible 'clay head' project, and Eli!Snape was holding his up to the light, and I've never seen a kid look at his art so thoughtfully (with the contemplative hand-to-his-chin gesture and everything.) This spawned many mental images of artistic!Snape, all of which made me giggle inside all the way down to lunch. It also made me think of that Bones clip I saw of Booth with his little clay horse? Was that what it was? I think so. XD *AWW*

Ok, here's something else I should do: I was in history class and Mr. Hanchett was talking about western immigration and stuff, and he mentioned that people went out there for better land. For some reason, this led him to say that the thing he wants most in the world (his Mirror of Erised) is just a tiny square of grass in his backyard. Because, you know, he apparently lives in Sommerville, which really is a "concrete jungle." So, for an Easter/April break present for him, I want to plant some grass seed in a little pot, and maybe stick a little mini birdhouse in it or something. That would be so cute!

Also over April break, I would like to dedicate that week to making a Snape-coat for ComicCon, but I don't know if that'll go through.

Argh, I need to watch Dollhouse. And Buffy.

I think I'm going to go to the movies this weekend; I'd really like to see Frost/Nixon. It's still out, isn't it? I'm pretty sure it is.

ELIZA DUSHKU WAS IN BOTTLE SHOCK!? NOW WHEN I WATCH IT WITH MUM (because I said I would) I KNOW I'M GOING TO FANGIGGLE. (Also, as I pointed out to the Gang, she's so awesome in that movie that she's the one snarking at Alan Rickman. =DDDDDD) 

I saw Steven in the library today, and he suddenly broke out into song. "John Jacobs Jingleheimer Schmidt!" I don't remember how Mr. Muller reacted.

I did a very stupid thing at Exit 51. I sort of went with a couple of other people to ask Ms. Beekley what she thought of Mr. Quadros' beard (which still looks ridiculous.) It was a STUPID thing to do. Really, at least when Snape snarks, it's more mean and condescending. When Ms. Beekley snarks, it's like she's trying to make your soul melt into a little puddle of shame. *Ali leans over, "Argh, stop backpedaling! You're making it worse!"* God, I think she loves how upset she makes me.

You know what I find interesting? The Insider (or whatever it's called) was on, and it seems like every five seconds there's like, "HAY GUYZ! MAH SEKRIT WEDDINS, LET ME SHOW U DEM!" I suppose I find that most annoying because of that bit of my Life's Work. It's like, "Okay, they didn't do it in secret because they wanted you to analyze everything, post pictures everywhere, and say horrible things about them. What is this 'secret' of which you speak?" Anyway, that's sort of a personal rambling (though Snape wholly agrees and says: DDDDD:<)

I was watching tv with Mum and there was a commercial for NEIL PATRICK HARRIS ON ELLEN HOLY FRICKING FRICK ON A BISCUIT- I was squeeing so hard, and I can only imagine that, had she seen it, chevy_the_geek would have had a coronary. Or her eyeballs would have popped out. That happened on House one time, you know. BUT NEVERMIND THAT. I saw a couple of pics from

church_of_nph

lyricalecho

Bruins game tomorrow! *Edgey!whoop!*
 

So... I really don't have much to post (big surprise! - no, really) but I figured I'd put something down anyway.

I finally listened to the rest of that Snapcast episode. They had a fic reading, actually, so when I woke up at five in the morning and couldn't go back to sleep, I figured I'd lay in bed and listen to it. So I'm sitting there, ten minutes in, in the dark, in bed, at five in the morning, bawling my little eyes out. It was like, Hermione being the clean-up crew for post-Hallows Snape, and it was actually kind of gross how they went into how his neck arteries were hanging out and everything, but... It was insanely heartbreaking, being inside Hermy's head at that point, and her thinking about what a sucky life he had and not being loved ever, and then they were talking about it afterward about the funky ending with the patronuses and how Snape's patronus came out as a hawk when they were closing the tomb because it probably was meant to be what it was before it was a doe like Lily and all, but then the doe showed up and he followed her into the Forest, and it was like she had forgiven him and come back to lead him home and I was just like, "BAAAAAAAAAAW!"

... That was a sucky synopsis, but that's ok. *sniffle*

It terms of other things that don't make my inner fangirl want to roll up in a ball and die, D's been sick and everything, so I sent him a copy of the Giley!fic, along with a lovely rundown of the Buffy knowledge he needed. It went something like:

"Giles: Think Remus Lupin (werewolf, Harry Potter, you know?) Think glasses. Think British. Think Obi-Wan, Gandalf or Dumbledore undercover as a librarian. Think... Tweed."

Unfortunately, however, the attatchment wouldn't go, so he ended up calling me and I read it to him over the phone. I think it made him feel alot better. If he visits today, then I might read him the first part of the Snilly fic. (This all reminds me that I need to do my ff.net thing- argh, I have to get around to that.)

Im just throwing this out, now that I'm on a bit more of a Furuba kick and I picked up this new icon and all, but I'm sort of starting to realize that I really identify with Tohru. I mean, I know she seems cute and innocent and all, but she's got some serious inner demons. That, and she tries to make everyone around her happy and feel better and all. In fact... I think she might be one of my favorite female characters... In general. I mean, more than Hermione for sure, and more that Willow I think, and maybe more than Kaylee? That's questionable. But yeah.

Hey, you know that new Kelly Clarkson song, My Life Would Suck Without You? I can't help but think of how perfect this is for my Life's Work- by which I mean the lyrics work and not so much the peppy tune (SNAPE DOES NOT APPROVE.) But really, it does work ridiculously well.

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go

or my favorite, and the most perfect few lines ever:

I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out
I'm nothing without you

Hee. <3

I also went shopping with my mum yesterday, and my God I was in a good mood. Even my mum, the maternal-like Mrs. Weasly was like, "Uh... Are you okay? You're so... Cheery." Maybe it's 'cause I got to rest my brain a little bit when I was sick. But I was in such a good mood that I ended up telling her that I danced with Tyler at the semi. I had just talked about it with Echo (just before Inkheart, actually, so that's why it was so weird seeing him there) and I thought I was going to keep it to myself. But I was just feeling so fuzzy that I kept literally opening my mouth to say it, and it wouldn't come out. So I'd be quiet again. And finally my mum just sort of popped out with, "Oh, hey, how's Tyler?" And I was just like, "OK YEAH ABOUT THAT- EEEE!?" And she thought it was cute, and tried to convince me that he didn't ask simply because Paige told him to. Because he would totally do that. He went out with Allison in junior high just because he heard she liked him and he felt bad. So I dunno. I'll see Paige on the bus at one point or another and maybe we can girl talk more? =3 She's good at that.

Hockey game today- I'm not sure if Timmy will be playing, though. I'm sure, as always, that Erica would be tremendously happy if he did. BRUUUUUUIIIINS YEAH!

I'm skipping the intro, and going straight to the biggest fangiggle I've had in months. About five minutes ago, I found out who was cast as the caterpillar in the Tim Burton Alice in Wonderland. Ready?

ALAN FRICKING RICKMAN. AS THE GORRAM CATERPILLAR. THINK ABOUT THAT FOR FIVE SECONDS. OMFGASDFGHJKL; TIM BURTON STOP BEING SO AMAZING ARGH AASDFGHJKLJHGFDSDFGHJKLKJHGFDFGH~

*sigh* Ok. So, Johnny Depp is the Mad Hatter, this I knew. Helena Bonham Carter is the Red Queen; I would only assume she was in it. And then you know who is the White Queen is? Anne Hathaway. That was sort of a surprise; I'm glad, though. I like her alot, and she hasn't been in anything that great recently. SO. I just wondered... Is Alan maybe becoming a part of the Tim Burton crowd? OOOOOOOH THAT WOULD BE SO GREAT~

BUGMAN!ALAN ON CRACK!

So. *giggle* Ok, I'm good now. Anyway, while I'm on the topic of Tim Burton, I finally saw Sweeny Todd. At Kenny's house, actually, at the end of Christmas vacation. Surprisingly, I didn't geek out as much as I thought I would: only during Alan's two singing bits. I mean, I didn't dislike it by any means. I guess Alan was just so evil, and creepy rather than snarky. Come on, he was creepy, and totally sketchy/stalker-like/child-molester. BUT I did love By the Sea; I couldn't help but think of the buttfacemakani pic with Bella and Voldie... Also, we told Erica that NPH played Toby once, and so she kept screaming that he was going to die, and freaking out every time he showed up, and we were just like, "THAT'S NOT NPH, DEARIE." Also, Borat makes me laugh. Now back to the Misadventures of Sev and Wally!

Newsflash! Snape wants to be the pope!

Really. But anyway, my mum has since finished it. I did read this one little part where Waleran came up with this battle plan, and William was all, "YEAH, LET'S GO SLAUGHTER SOME PEOPLE!" and Wally was just like, "Erm... You can... You know... Go without me. Please." Oh, also? I did find a bit that mentioned how he hardly eats anything. And I'm like, 'Heh. I knew that was totally in-character.' But he really was evil, whereas Sev is not, so you know.  He ended up having something to do with this plot that killed some guy, and something about dethroning the king, and apparently it was really easy to guess what it was.

You know what kind of drove me nuts, though? The way this guy writes dialogue is weird. It's like it goes, "Waleran said: 'Wow, why am I a snarky, evil bishop and not a snarky, not-really-evil professor?'" It's really funky with the colon and all.
 

I've been singing Sound of Music, like, a ton. Do you think we could give Snape a guitar and make him sing Eidelweiss? We already know from Sweeny that he can sing... (XDDDDDDDDD SORRY: THIS IS HOW I THINK~)

I've added House and Dr. Chase to my List, because, you know, they're cool. They aren't very high up, but still.

You know you're turning into Echo's little sister when people from the Constitutional Convention are showing up on your List. I was studying for my history midterm, and I found this blurb about James Madison. Basically, he was like a little shoebox!Remus. You know, he was always reading, and he was sort of quiet and cute and good at being the research-guy and... Well, Remus-y. I can just see it: "Um... Mr. Washington, sir? I was reading last night, and I found this really interesting chapter about Ancient Rome, and it gave me a good idea, but it might not be so good, I'm not sure-" And Ben Franklin all, "Out with it, boy!" "Right! Yes, so I was thinking..." Hee. <3

On the same page, I was still studying in art, and I was talking about this one thing with my friend Emily. Basically, during the war between France and Britain, this guy called Citizen Genet was stirring up the Americans to join the French. And Washington was all, "Hey, we're not getting involved here." So Genet set up this whole meeting and basically dumped on Washington. Emily said, "So he said to Washington, 'So go away, or we shall be forced to taunt you a second time!'"

Of course, Mr. Hanchett noted that Genet was then "forcibly removed from the country" which Ellie translated to "drop-kicked across the pond."

I want to point something out here. Trauma Center? Back when we were playing it at the Fantastic Five sleepover, we looked up some sprites and were horrified to see the similarities between our/my favorite Kassal brother and a certain lavender-suited defense attorney...

 

So much time, so little to tell. Wait. No. Scratch that, put it in reverse.

Ok, so... Going back to Friday. Mr. Mintz was talking about schizophrenia and how some people babble nonsense, which is called word salad. He says, "It's as if you take all the words of the english language and turn them into bits of lettuce and tomatoes and cucumbers, and..." "And those funky little onions!" "YES!" he says to me. "AND THOSE FUNKY LITTLE ONIONS!"

Um... I had this dream night before last that was kind of a Buffy thing, and I swear Giles was in it, and I'm almost certain Snape was there too. But they were hanging out with Howl, and maybe I was Buffy? But anyway, Howl called me on my cell phone to warn me about demons or whatever, and he was speaking in a French accent. And I was like, "Hey, aren't you British?" And he was like, "Um?" Before which he went off on a whole rant about why he was obviously Frnch, and didn't I pay any attention at all? But then Snape's first cat from my Snape!fic was there, except he was turned into a t-shirt... And someone was wearing him? But it was still Snape's cat... But then last night I had a Buffy-like dream too, but I don't remember much about that. Oddly, I hadn't watched the show for a while before any of that...

So. The Christmas party. I won't even go into the history of the annual Christmas party that my dad's side of the family has. But, in essence, I'm usually pretty dependent on the presence of my Aunt Cheryl, who writes self-help books and has been on Good Morning America and Oprah, and God knows what else. So she did indeed come, and she brough another lovely author-friend from California, who has done basically the same. Dude. They. Saved. My life. I would have died in the hor d'oeurves if they hadn't been there.

So Cheryl and Debbie (Debbie Ford, the author friend) were talking to me and they decided that I should write a book about what parents should and shouldn't do during a divorce, basically because my parents went through a bloodbath. 'Cause you know that nine year old boy who wrote a book about women? People dig young authors, apparently, so yeah. Thanks for giving me this two weeks after NaNoWriMo. I dunno what I'll do with it now. (Oh, and also? Debbie has a son one year younger than me, and he loves ComicCon too. =DDDDDD)

What else, what else... OH FRUITS BASKET~

*sigh* Ok, so what else? I did some lovely drawings this weekend, and I might post one or two once I ink them. They're all Snape!fic, of course, all with Meloric, simply because I was in that cute-yet-melancholic-Furuba-induced-mood. She's very much like that, now that I think about it, sort of like my postwar!Snape. The apple doesn't fall far from the tree, I guess. (Which makes sense, because she really does love her daddy very much.) *D'awwwwww~* <3333333333333333333333333

Oh, here we go: a wet fish slap back to reality. Turns out my cold hands and poor circulation mean I have Reynaud's disease. I'd assumelyricalecho has it too, judging how she turns purple and stuff. But anyway, we won't die or anything. Oddly enough, I did some research and do you know what sometimes causes Reynaud's? (Or is the effect of, if I read it wrong, which would be bad.) But anyway, do you know what I'm talking about? Lupus. Lupus. Dr. House is now coming to impale my head on his cane.

stella_muse

1. Prof. Severus Snape (Harry Potter - <333)
2. Hatori Sohma (Fruits Basket - NEEEEEEDS A HUG OMG LET ME MAKE IT BETTERRRRRR~)
3. Rupert Giles (Buffy the Vampire Slayer - all rolled into one = amazing and cute!)
4. Diego Armando/ Godot (Phoenix Wright - so in need of a hug and so awesome, EEE!)
5. Miles Edgeworth (Phoenix Wright - also occasionally emo, and equally in need of  hug)
6. Remus Lupin (Harry Potter - d'awww, guyz. d'awww.)
7. Abe Sapien (Hellboy - way too cute for a fishman)
8. Prof. Hershel Layton (Prof. Layton and the Curious Village - "A gentleman always puts the lady first." I LOVE THIS GUY~)
9. Alan Rickman (RL, peeps - don't get me started. i'll drool)
10. Neil Patrick Harris (and again - EVEN ELMO LIKES HIM)
11. Dr. Simon Tam (Firefly - awwww, all awkward-y)
12. Billy/ Dr. Horrible (Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog - Biiiiillllllyyyyyyy~)
13. Dick Gumshoe (Phoenix Wright "HIYA PAL!")
14. Hoban Washburn/ Wash (Firefly - "I AM A LEAF ON THE WIND!")
15. Margrave Royston (Havemercy - argh stop being so cute)
16. Balfour (Havemercy - "No one deserves a blue face...")
17. Col. Christopher Brandon (Sense and Sensibility - too cute for a Jane Austen peep)
18. Prince Septimus (Stardust - WAAAAAY TOO MUCH LIKE SNAPE)
19. Dr. James Wilson (House "*chhk* Hoooooouse... This is Gooooood... Refoooooorm your liiiiife...")
20. Atticus Finch (To Kill A Mockingbird - EEK SO CUTE AND LAWYER-Y)
21. Com. James Gordon (Batman - driving the Batmobile in Batman Begins? = WIN)
22. Alan Tudyk (because he's cute, and Erika's fangirling makes him grow on me even more)
23. Nathan Fillion (since, you know, he's hot in a cool way and it's funny how he picks on Alan and dirty!cat
24. Anderson Cooper (another RL - CNN - blame my mum)
25. Dr. Carlisle Cullen (Twilight - ANOTHER HOT DOCTOR)
26. Fred/ Geroge Weasley (Harry Potter - as one entry....)
27. Davy Jones (POTC - and obviously I don't mind fishmen)
28. Silas Orello (an OC of mine - so cute and huggable)
29. Benvolio Montague (Romeo and Juilet - eee!!!1!!)
30. Johnny Depp (another RL - he's just so gorram nice)
31. Sydney Carton (Tale of Two Cities - the only reason I liked this book)
32. Gregory Peck (i like old actors, shush)
33. Gregory Edgeworth (Phoenix Wright - eee~)
34. Ayame Sohma (Fruits Basket "=DDDDDDDDDDDDD")
35. Howl (Howl's Moving Castle - HE HAS PLUSHIE ZEBRAS AND DINGLY DANGLIES)
36. Kureno Sohma (Fruits Basket - 'cause I'm a Rooster, anyway, but he does need a hug)
37. Angel (Buffy the Vampire Slayer - I'm conflicted, but he is indeed hotter than Edward AND HE DOESN'T SPARKLE)
38. Kyle Hyde (Hotel Dusk: Room 213 - me and my obscure yet AMAZING DS GAMES)
39. D (NOT RL D - Trace Memory - another incredible DS game; one of my favorite games EVER)
40. Sesshomaru (Inuyasha - I haven't seen this for a while and I should; Ren = <333)
41. Com. James Norrington (Pirates of the Caribbean - preferrably AWE Norrie)
42. Fitzwilliam Darcy (Pride and Prejudice - I just love it, okay?)
43. Katsuya Honda (Fruits Basket - so obscure, and ILU)
44. Cillian Murphy (an actor, albiet not as well known)
45. Wall-E (HE'S A ROBOT, BUT HE'S STILL REALLY CUTE, OKAY?)